Today I Am Not in Good Spirits

Today I am not in good spirits
Today I will laugh at myself,
Against me I will lay all my bets
And come face to face with myself

Today I’m sad, my heart beats
In vain will I search for a friend,
Today I will wander the streets
And into temptations descend.

Soon night will fall, it will blacken
My own hand I’ll see only barely,
As always I’ll go on, forsaken
Before long I will no longer be

Will my friends talk of me with contempt
Will she listen? I am betrayed,
Will they pass me by and attempt
To evade me in the grand masquerade?